Impatiently Frustrated

I am so impatient. I always want things to happen now, right away. This is a bad thing, but I feel like I have been waiting forever for something to happen. When it comes to education I get frustrated that I have to learn so many different things when they won't even help me in my profession. I feel as if I am going faster than life is. I want to move to a big city and start a real career but college is holding me back. I want things now, not later. Maybe I am just frustrated, but is it with myself or everyone else. This really does not have anything to do with gaining. I don't really know why I am writing this here but I am. Even when it comes to private lessons I can only fit one in per month because of money. I would be so much farther along if I could do two per month. I am tired of waiting for everything. Everything is just really frustrating right now.

255 lbs!!

I posted two new youtube videos yesterday! So far the gaining has been going great. I'm up to 255 lbs and it feels like my belly and ass are growing more this time, as opposed to it all going to my theighs. I really love stretchmarks on a guys belly so that is what I am shooting for. I am actually starting to feel fat, which really excites me :D. I only have 2 pairs of jeans left that fit .... and I need to buy a new suit jacket. I had to play a concert last week with the suit jacket in one of my videos. It was a little awkward, but I guess that is the price you pay for being a glutton. I hope everyone is doing well!

As Always,
Eat up

Voting!!

I hope that everyone got out and voted today. I did! Everything has been going fairly well in the past couple days. Had a cello lesson today and it went extremely well so I am very happy about that. I wish that people were not so afraid of gaining. People put on weight all the time, very few people even notice that you have put on weight and even less will comment on it. So eat up everyone!!