Karmically Bitchslapped

For all of you that have been worried about my dog, he is fine. Umm, he ate a pack of sanitary pads. Luckily, they were not used (for all of you who were wondering). So ... my tax return, that I was going to use to get a laptop, went to my dog's vet bills. They just took x-rays and gave him some shots, no surgery and now I am broke. Argh!

Work has been getting on my nerves too. I cannot wait to quit working there. I am tired of working for someone that I feel is not competent enough to do their job. Instead, they push their tasks onto me and I get overloaded and things do not get completed. Then when my superiors are in trouble ... they easily push the blame upon those below them. Apparently if you have been in the business longer than I have been alive it gives you that right.

As many of you may already know, I am about 2 lbs away from my goal of 225 lbs. I would like to thank everyone for their donations to help me keep growing. One person I would like to thank especially, trelbloat. Your donations have helped tremendously as you can tell. I have been eating like crazy and I love it. All of my shirts are tight, and I no longer fit into my work pants. I think a lot of it has to do with this music that was sent to me. This music is supposed to have a subliminal message hidden underneath a type of inspirational music. I was very skeptical at first, however it seems to be working very well. If you are interested in getting this music feel free to message me on yahoo.

I have been thinking about this next bit for quite some time. Everyone that approaches me online and asks "Why did you start gaining". My response is always this. "I have always been attracted to a slim guy that puts on weight. I find it incredibly erotic. For a very long time I wanted to wait and gain with someone, find someone similar to me and start from scratch. This opportunity never appeared. So I got fed up and started gaining on my own." I did receive a lot of help from an encourager that will always hold a special place in my heart and he knows who he is.

Then I get approached by these skinny guys that say that they have tried to gain weight and it "didn't work out". To that I say ... there is no way that you tried hard enough to gain weight. If it is something that you truly desire you will get it. Gaining weight is not easy, just like losing weight. There have been a few times where I have ate so much it made me kind of sick to my stomach, but it was all towards a goal. Similar to how athletes will run until they get sick. Don't tell me that you can't gain weight ... you can, you just have to try, you have to research and then apply what you have found out.

For those that approach me and say that they are afraid to gain because of what people would think about them. Here is the scoop. Most people are too busy looking at themselves in the mirror that they will not even notice that you have put on weight. They ARE NOT going to think that you are putting on weight intentionally. You see people gain weight all the time in your day to day life. Do you think to yourself every time that you see someone that is fat, "oh they did that on purpose"? If you do ... I'm sorry I have to say this ... you are stupid. Look at me ... I have put on almost 50 lbs total, most people that I encounter have not even noticed at all. I have received comments from two people. One being my grandmother who said "you don't look anorexic anymore" and the other ... one of my coworkers who said that I am getting love handles.

Don't live your life worrying about what others will think about you. As gay males most of us have come a tremendous way already, why should this be any different?

Tip of the Day: After eating as much as possible it is best to take a nap. While you are sleeping your metabolism falls nearly to a halt. So the more calories you pack in before bed, the more calories will be converted to fat.

As Always,
Eat up

Reserved ... yet thoughtless

I am glad to see that I have received a positive response to my first post. So here is what has been going on. My dog is in the hospital. He ate something and we aren't sure what it is but he has to stay there. They did x-rays and found some kind of blockage so that he isn't able to go to the bathroom. I should know sometime soon if he needs to have surgery or not, which is going to be expensive. Other than that not much has been going on.

Work has been terrible. I can not wait to get out and into college. My dream would be to go to Cleveland Institute for Music and to play in a pit orchestra on Broadway ... but the chances of that are really low, but hey I can still dream.

I have started a growth fund, with everything that has been going on it has been harder and harder to gain weight in a healthy manner. Sure I can eat at work and I can get cheap fast food but I am worried that I am going to have very negative side effects from the amount of "bad" stuff that I am ingesting. I don't really think that the growth fund will work but you never know.

A few days ago I watched a youtube video created by ForceMeBig, who is another gainer on beefyfrat. I was so incredibly turned on by it, that I went out and bought heavy whipping cream, half and half, and a half gallon chocolate peanut butter ice cream. I ran home and mixed all of my ingredients ... including a little veg. oil, for some extra calories. I then proceeded to chug it down in one sitting feeling my belly fill up with fattening goodness. Afterwards I took a nap to let it all be absorbed to be stored in my belly. Sorry to make this so short but I have to go meet a Gracie for a late lunch.

Tip of the Week: Try your best to skip breakfast. Skipping breakfast will slow your metabolism for the rest of the day. My old health teacher, who was also a nutritionalist, always said that it is better to eat a tablespoon of sugar than to eat nothing at all because it sets the pace for the rest of the day. A slow metabolism means more of the calories that you ingest are stored as fat cells.

As Always,
Eat up!!

Preface

Let me start out saying that I am young, well not too young, I'm 21. I am by no means an expert in the area of gaining or the chub and chaser group. I do know someone that I would classify as an expert, and he knows who he is. I am writing this to let young people know that it is natural. Being attracted to overweight people is something that just is and it should not be ignored.

The feel of a full belly, an expanding waistline or a supple roll of fat are all major turn ons for me. I have tried to ignore these attractions and forced myself to have what are deemed as "normal" relationships, however these have always ended terribly.

I am going to try my best to tell my story, to talk openly about myself and my attractions. After going through a denial period I feel that it is necessary for me to let people know that they should not be ashamed. Hopefully I can prevent others the heartache and pain that I had gone through while trying to be "normal".

Enough of my preaching.

About me: I am 21 and I live in Ohio. I grew up in an upper middle class town in NW Ohio and had a normal family. My always knew that I was different from my family and I still think that I am a milkman baby. I look nothing like my family and I have features only from my mothers side of the family, however my mom was not the cheating type. My father on the other hand was.

My parents finally decided to get divorced around the time that I was 14. At the age of 15 I had to get a job. My so-called father did not feel that it should be his job to continue to support the family since he was no longer living under the roof of the house that "he built". So I started working at McDonald's .... yay!! gainers love that. I got the job so that I could pay for my own clothes, so my mother had one less thing to worry about as she had constant panic attacks at the local grocery store, fearing that she would no longer be able to afford to feed her family while my father was on vacation in Florida. Hey, who doesn't have family issues.

Either way, I turned to music to forget about my family problems. Music quickly became my passion, my reason for living. I began studying privately while I was in 6th grade but I never noticed how much of an attachment I had to music until all of my family drama began to take shape. Along with music my other passion proved to be work, I threw myself whole heartedly into whatever I was doing. At the age of 18 I was playing semi-professionally with a local symphony and I was a full time hourly manager at McDonald's along with going to high school and part time at local State University. I weighed 175 lbs and harbored my true desires, to get fat and to be with guy that was getting fat too.

Me at 175 lbs Summer 2007 (left)
Me at 211 lbs Winter 2008 (right)

So here it goes. I will try my best to give tips to those who would like to gain some weight. Hopefully I will keep this running for awhile so I can post progress pictures and make a bit of an impact in the lives of those who are ashamed of what it is that they desire.