So it has been quite awhile since I last updated, so I'll try and fill you in on the goings on as much as possible. I was dating a guy from the Pittsburgh area for about 3 months when out of the blue he broke up with me. Stating that he doesn't feel that it is fair that when I go to visit him that he can't focus all his attention on me. The reasoning given was rather shady so I don't know if there was some form of cheating going on. Especially when a few days before I was enlightened with this information he told me that he took the time to write a whole paper to an online friend telling him how to gain weight. It isn't that I am against someone in a relationship with me to not be proactive in the fat cause, it is that he told me that he was too stressed with work and school to see me for a weekend. Either way I had a room at the Hilton in Pittsburgh lined up for Valentines day for us to share and go sightseeing. I purchased it as nonrefundable because I thought it was a sure thing. So at the last minute I had to find someone to go with. Enter the skinny boy from southern Ohio, he is a gainer just starting out. So he went to Pittsburgh with me and we had a great time. I got to go to the Andy Warhol museum, got to ride the inclines with lots of belly gropage and a make out session and then got to got to the National Aviary, where I got to pet a real live south African penguin!
Regardless of the recent break up between the Pittsburgh native and I, I still had an excellent time. Of which I am really surprised that I wasn't depressed considering the circumstances. The new guy and I have been talking/texting daily, so things are going well on that front. I will most likely be visiting him during my spring break and hopefully he will reciprocate during his.
School has been going very well this semester. I am only taking 16 credit hours and I cut my work hours down to 24. This allows me to actually do my homework and study for tests and exams. I am also taking intro to gender and sexuality, I signed up for this mainly because I find it very hard to understand gay men. Not the straight acting men but the men that I would consider "flamers". After I came out to my mother, after the initial 4 weeks that we didn't talk, she told me "I don't care who you date so long as you don't bring home a flamer". I really don't think that this is where it stems from, mainly because I am not attracted to the over-the-top gay men in the world without my mom being prejudiced against them. I guess I just don't understand why they act the way that they do. Maybe the fact that they act that way makes me a little envious because they are able to be to be spotted out for a potential mate more easily then myself. Anyway enough rambling.
Gaining has been fairly stagnant, but my stretchmarks seem to be expanding with a few new ones radiating out from my bellybutton. Last time I weighed myself I was at 286 which is where I have been hovering for quite some time. It isn't that I have plateaued, it is more of I don't want to keep growing until I have a steady, dependable relationship. I have even considered losing some weight and then gaining it back when I find something stable. What do you all think?
As always,
Eat Up!
