Fall Semester 2010

So this semester has kicked my butt.  I was studying multiple instruments, cello, piano, voice, percussion.  Soooo much practicing did not allow much time for fun, not to mention time to chat with friends.  As many of you may know I have someone that I am very interested in, but he isn't completely out yet so we are kinda playing it cool for now, I'm hoping that it progresses along soon though.  He is a gainer/encourager, still very much skinny but we have been working on that, he is up over 15 lbs from when he began early fall/late summer.  I'm very proud of him :P

As far as the belly goes, it is still smaller than it was last winter but I am very much ok with that.  I have not had to work during the week, and when I go back to work on the weekends, my body isn't used to standing/walking on concrete for 9-10 hours at a time so my knees hurt.  I think that I may have to hold off on gaining much more weight until I don't have to be on my feet for long periods of time.

I hope that everyone is well this Holiday season, and I'm hoping that people do migrate to the new account.

Stuffmebloated

255 lbs!!

I posted two new youtube videos yesterday!  So far the gaining has been going great.  I'm up to 255 lbs and it feels like my belly and ass are growing more this time, as opposed to it all going to my theighs.  I really love stretchmarks on a guys belly so that is what I am shooting for.  I am actually starting to feel fat, which really excites me :D.  I only have 2 pairs of jeans left that fit .... and I need to buy a new suit jacket.  I had to play a concert last week with the suit jacket in one of my videos.  It was a little awkward, but I guess that is the price you pay for being a glutton.  I hope everyone is doing well!

As Always,
Eat up

Struggling

So ... I have been struggling to put on weight.  Trying my best ... I started a food journal like Stupidgit.  Seems to be helping to see a visual chart of how many calories I have consumed.  I did stuff myself yesterday so I will be posting the video after I filled my belly.  Thanks to trelbloat I was able to fill my belly.  I have been short on the money aspect recently so it has been hard.  So thank you to everyone that has donated money to my Growth Fund, it truly has helped me gain.  I hope everyone is doing well!!

As Always,
Eat Up!

Still alive

Hello everyone ... well school has been dominating my life.  I started a new job. I am a server at a very high end seafood restaurant now.  I am hoping that I can work less and still make good money. I have moved back home in preparation of leaving for a four year college next year and I am very excited about that. Everything seems to be falling into place. To think last year I thought I would be stuck working fast food for the rest of my life and now the changes that I set into motion are actually working.

On the gaining front ... I took a bit of a break. I did lose some weight but not a tremendous amount. I have put some of it back on already ... I'm about 245 lbs. I think that I might want to shoot for 260 but I am going to take it slow. Thank you all for your support and comments!

As Always,
Eat Up

A fraud among us

Someone has been pirating my videos on youtube along with Williesao's ... a friend of mine. Please take the time to flag his videos and make some comments on his site as to why he should not be stealing other people's work. I responded to him once and he replied saying that he is friend of Williesao's and he has never heard of this hanibalbelly person. here is the URL to his youtube page.

Link

Please ... we need to make him stop before hi pirates everyone's vid.

Thanks,
Stuffmebloated

Indifference

So ... I was kind of disappointed in the results of the poll. I feel as if many people may not have understood where I was coming from. It isn't that I would be losing weight in order to find someone. I would be losing it so I felt more comfortable in my own skin until I found someone supportive enough to overcome the day to day discomfort from being a bigger guy. No matter how much someone presents themselves as being a confident gainer there is always going to be the little voice in the back of their mind. That voice constantly says "What are you doing to yourself" "Is this morally right" "Are these just temptations". It makes a huge difference to have a true support system to reassure you of what you are doing. It is immoral to expect someone to continue gaining for your own pleasure without considering the repercussions that they will have to endure day in and day out. It is a great and fun fantasy to think of a guy gaining against his will, but in real life it isn't right.

I do feel fairly comfortable with my size and I feel as if I would like to get a little bigger but I don't want to do it on my own. I miss the looks that I would get when I was skinny. I long for the attention and ease of finding fashionable clothing. The eroticism of the weight has begun to wane, while the support system has begun to crumble. The constant tale of "If I were closer" or "If I had the money" doesn't suffice for the day to day longing for physical closeness and companionship.

I don't want any of you to be disappointed. I haven't decided to lose any of the weight. I have just been thinking about my life and what I want from it. I do appreciate the online comments and for those of you who I have had the fortune of meeting I thank you very much and hold you near to my heart.

I don't mean to sound like I'm lecturing anyone. I would just like to show a different angle on gaining and how many gainers feel. Gaining can be an incredibly erotic transformation, but it needs to be kept in check. It can be incredibly detrimental, not only to one's body, but to the mind and spirit. A gainer is a person, with feelings and thoughts, not just an object. Keep this in mind when you try and bring your fantasies to life.

As Always.
Eat Up!

Yet again still alive

So it has been quite awhile since I last updated, so I'll try and fill you in on the goings on as much as possible. I was dating a guy from the Pittsburgh area for about 3 months when out of the blue he broke up with me. Stating that he doesn't feel that it is fair that when I go to visit him that he can't focus all his attention on me. The reasoning given was rather shady so I don't know if there was some form of cheating going on. Especially when a few days before I was enlightened with this information he told me that he took the time to write a whole paper to an online friend telling him how to gain weight. It isn't that I am against someone in a relationship with me to not be proactive in the fat cause, it is that he told me that he was too stressed with work and school to see me for a weekend. Either way I had a room at the Hilton in Pittsburgh lined up for Valentines day for us to share and go sightseeing. I purchased it as nonrefundable because I thought it was a sure thing. So at the last minute I had to find someone to go with. Enter the skinny boy from southern Ohio, he is a gainer just starting out. So he went to Pittsburgh with me and we had a great time. I got to go to the Andy Warhol museum, got to ride the inclines with lots of belly gropage and a make out session and then got to got to the National Aviary, where I got to pet a real live south African penguin!

Regardless of the recent break up between the Pittsburgh native and I, I still had an excellent time. Of which I am really surprised that I wasn't depressed considering the circumstances. The new guy and I have been talking/texting daily, so things are going well on that front. I will most likely be visiting him during my spring break and hopefully he will reciprocate during his.

School has been going very well this semester. I am only taking 16 credit hours and I cut my work hours down to 24. This allows me to actually do my homework and study for tests and exams. I am also taking intro to gender and sexuality, I signed up for this mainly because I find it very hard to understand gay men. Not the straight acting men but the men that I would consider "flamers". After I came out to my mother, after the initial 4 weeks that we didn't talk, she told me "I don't care who you date so long as you don't bring home a flamer". I really don't think that this is where it stems from, mainly because I am not attracted to the over-the-top gay men in the world without my mom being prejudiced against them. I guess I just don't understand why they act the way that they do. Maybe the fact that they act that way makes me a little envious because they are able to be to be spotted out for a potential mate more easily then myself. Anyway enough rambling.

Gaining has been fairly stagnant, but my stretchmarks seem to be expanding with a few new ones radiating out from my bellybutton. Last time I weighed myself I was at 286 which is where I have been hovering for quite some time. It isn't that I have plateaued, it is more of I don't want to keep growing until I have a steady, dependable relationship. I have even considered losing some weight and then gaining it back when I find something stable. What do you all think?

As always,
Eat Up!