Finally Finals!

So I'm nearing the end of finals week at college. I have done very well so far and I am extremely happy with myself. There was a class that I thought I would not pass called Aural Skills and I actually finished it with an 85% too bad I have to take it for another 3 semesters but that is ok. I have one final left tomorrow but I am not too worried, it is Music Theory but I already have an A in the class. Aside from school work has actually been going very well, tips have picked up because of the Holiday Season which is good cuz I have to buy Christmas gifts still. All of this stress has been helping my tummy quite a bit. I have put on another 10 lbs and I am now up to 275 lbs and my belly is measuring about 49" which is the largest ever. It is feeling great although I don't have enough clothes that fit anymore, but thats the price you have to pay for being a glutton. Here are some pics. I hope everyone is doing well :D

Christmas

So everything has been going pretty well. I weighed in at 265 this morning :D. I can't wait for winter break to be here. Oh, I aced all of my math tests this semester so I don't have to take my final exam which I am very excited about. As for my Aural Skills class I will be cutting it close in there. It is very difficult, the teacher suggested that next semester I take Chorus to help my vocal range so I am signed up for that. I am also scheduled completely for next semester with 17 credit hours, it is going to be tough. I am going to class from 9 am till 4 pm. However it is only three days a week, which I am grateful for. This way I can pick up some more hours at work, money has been very tight lately, along with my pants. I am going to be slowing down with gaining. I truly only have two pants that fit and one is getting too tight. So until I can afford more clothing I will have to try and watch what I eat :0. This is going to be difficult! I hope everyone out there is doing well despite the economic down turns. Oh I am writing a paper for my Comp I class about how the media portrays body types and I am citing an essay in our book, which cites another author. Her name is Marilynn Wan and her book is title "Fat! So?". Has anyone read this before ... I think I might want to take a gander at it. I am also reading Darkly Dreaming Dexter which is the book that inspired the absolutely amazing showtime series Dexter. Which stars Michael C. Hall, that sexy devil :D Oh well I gotta head off to class.

As Always,
Eat Up!

Impatiently Frustrated

I am so impatient. I always want things to happen now, right away. This is a bad thing, but I feel like I have been waiting forever for something to happen. When it comes to education I get frustrated that I have to learn so many different things when they won't even help me in my profession. I feel as if I am going faster than life is. I want to move to a big city and start a real career but college is holding me back. I want things now, not later. Maybe I am just frustrated, but is it with myself or everyone else. This really does not have anything to do with gaining. I don't really know why I am writing this here but I am. Even when it comes to private lessons I can only fit one in per month because of money. I would be so much farther along if I could do two per month. I am tired of waiting for everything. Everything is just really frustrating right now.

255 lbs!!

I posted two new youtube videos yesterday! So far the gaining has been going great. I'm up to 255 lbs and it feels like my belly and ass are growing more this time, as opposed to it all going to my theighs. I really love stretchmarks on a guys belly so that is what I am shooting for. I am actually starting to feel fat, which really excites me :D. I only have 2 pairs of jeans left that fit .... and I need to buy a new suit jacket. I had to play a concert last week with the suit jacket in one of my videos. It was a little awkward, but I guess that is the price you pay for being a glutton. I hope everyone is doing well!

As Always,
Eat up

Voting!!

I hope that everyone got out and voted today. I did! Everything has been going fairly well in the past couple days. Had a cello lesson today and it went extremely well so I am very happy about that. I wish that people were not so afraid of gaining. People put on weight all the time, very few people even notice that you have put on weight and even less will comment on it. So eat up everyone!!

Encouragement :)

So a few people have discussed some interest in me putting up an xtube video ... which I am not fully opposed to. So here is the challenge ... I am short on money. So if there is enough money donated to where I can binge and get up to 260 in about 2 weeks I will post a sexy new vid on xtube. Let me know what you think. I am weighing in at about 248 right now so 12 lbs in two weeks would be hard and a lot of food.

As Always,
Eat up!

Struggling

So ... I have been struggling to put on weight. Trying my best ... I started a food journal like Stupidgit. Seems to be helping to see a visual chart of how many calories I have consumed. I did stuff myself yesterday so I will be posting the video after I filled my belly. Thanks to trelbloat I was able to fill my belly. I have been short on the money aspect recently so it has been hard. So thank you to everyone that has donated money to my Growth Fund, it truly has helped me gain. I hope everyone is doing well!!

As Always,
Eat Up!

Still Alive

Hello everyone ... well school has been dominating my life. I started a new job. I am a server at a very high end seafood restaurant now. I am hoping that I can work less and still make good money. I have moved back home in preparation of leaving for a four year college next year and I am very excited about that. Everything seems to be falling into place. To think last year I thought I would be stuck working fast food for the rest of my life and now the changes that I set into motion are actually working.

On the gaining front ... I took a bit of a break. I did lose some weight but not a tremendous amount. I have put some of it back on already ... I'm about 245 lbs. I think that I might want to shoot for 260 but I am going to take it slow. Thank you all for your support and comments!

As Always,
Eat Up

Classes

So classes began already. Everything seems to be going fairly well. I have been extremely busy with everything though. I stepped down at work so now I am making less money which is sad. But at least I don't have all of the same responsibilities that I did. Money has been tight with everything and I have actually lost some weight ... I was up to 253 and now I am about 245. I think with the stress and not having excess money it has made it hard to gain weight. I am hoping once I get out of the apartment I am in and into a cheaper place it will be a lot easier than it is now. Other than all that not much is new. If you still wanna donate feel free.

As Always,
Eat Up!

Overwhelming Schedule

Sorry that I haven't updated recently. I have been crazy busy with work and scheduling classes. I am currently taking 13 credit hours for the fall and I tested out of 4 credit hours. I will also be stepping down at work from Asst. Store Manager to just an Assistant Manager. I am very excited about all of this. First, work pisses me off so the less responsibility that I have there the better off I am. Secondly, I am so happy to be headed off to school. I am taking a lot of music classes which will make me very happy. I also received the schedule for one of the symphonies that I play with which is giving its core players a raise which is awesome.

As for gaining, not a lot has been happening there. I still have a few issues with my hand but it seems to be doing better. I am currently at 244 lbs, 6 lbs from my goal. I have been holding steady ... but not much progress. Hopefully this fall will help me put on more weight but I am skeptical seeing as I will be going to school full time and working full time. But we'll see how it turns out soon enough!

As Always,
Eat up

Thank You!

I just wanted to take a second and thank everyone for their concerns. I have tried to slow down the gaining and have lost about 4 lbs. But I find it hard not to give into my desires. So I doubt that I will be losing any weight at all. The hand still isn't much better but I will be seeing the doc soon to help take care of that. Once again thank you to everyone!

As Always,
Eat Up

Medical Stuff

So I have been gaining very well lately and I really want to keep going but I think I may need to slow down and/or lose some weight. I have a medical condition called Neurocardiogenic Syncope which messes with my blood pressure. Basically situations or conditions around me can cause me to pass out easily. I am on medications to help prevent that, but at my last doctors visit my doctor told me that the medication isn't controlling it anymore. I am getting secondary side effects too. Like my left half of my left hand has gone numb, this began almost a week ago. This frustrates me beyond belief because I am studying to become a professional cellist. While practicing today my hand kept slipping off of the fingerboard and I felt like I had taken 5 steps back in my playing. I don't want to up my medications due to the possible side effects from that but I don't want to stop gaining. I'm only 246 and I don't feel "that" big yet. So I think that I may end up eating a little less and lose some weight but I still want to get big. I hope that you all understand. This isn't an ultimatum or anything. Just for now it means that things are on hold until everything is under control. Thank you very much for listening to my ramblings!

As Always,
Eat Up

Relationships

So many of you feel the same way that I do about relationships. As a gainer/encourager I know that it is necessary to begin romantic relationships only with people that understand gaining and want to be part of that. I understand that it is unfair for me to try and date people that are not gainers or encouragers. I have dated people in the past who did not agree with gaining. I tried my best to keep it a secret from them but it always comes out and they don't understand it. They usually do not respond well to my hidden secret. Many refuse to try and understand it either and most certainly will not accept it.

As for the last weekend I did find someone to come and hangout with me because my plans had fallen through. It was a lot of fun and I definitely ate a tremendous amount of food. With that said I am above 240 now and the last time I stepped on the scale it said 242. I still don't really feel all that big although I have had to buy bigger pants and shirts. My 36's are really tight and 38's are fairly tight. So I have to wear my new 42's. I would also like to thank all of you who have sent donations. I would not be able to gain weight without the donations. Thank you all for your support and thanks for reading.

As Always,
Eat Up

Still working on it

I've still been growing! Not much has been going on. Work is still horrible. I was supposed to spend the weekend with ZooBoy but things fell through. No ones fault it just didn't work out. We rescheduled for later this year so it is all cool. I bought some new pants yesterday. Size 42, there is quite a bit of room but I need to try and skip some sizes to save money. I also bought my first extra large shirt, again still has room so I can grow. I am about 240 lbs right now however I don't feel that big. Currently my goal is 275 lbs at the end of everything. I am not sure if that will be enough though, but I do not want to be 300 lbs. You never know though.

I was able to get someone to visit me this weekend since I already had it off. He is on bf but doesn't have any pics, but he seems really sweet and he's a cutie. A little skinny though but we will be working on that. So expect lots of pics early next week.

As Always,
Eat up!

Stretch Marks!!

Hey everyone!! Everything has been going pretty well so far. Finances are a bit messed up and the donations are truly helping. I only have one pair of shorts and two pairs of jeans that fit and I am still growing :D. I am still around 230ish ... last time was 232. I wanted to talk a little about stretch marks though. Personally I like stretch marks, I think that they are hot. I kind of see them as a badge of honor for a gainer. It shows the true dedication, stamina and hard work that you have done in order to grow that belly of yours. Some people try to say that it is gross or they don't really feel either way on the subject. However, I feel that gainers should show their stretch marks with pride.

For those of you who do not agree with me or are afraid of getting stretch marks while gaining there are some things you can do to prevent them. There are a lot of over the counter medications that you can purchase to help with stretch marks. I am not sure as to how well those work, but I have heard some pretty good success stories in helping to diminish your stretch marks. Also, you can try to rub vitamin E on your stretch marks and that is supposed to help them. I am pretty sure that if you use vitamin E before you get them on your belly it will help to prevent them. But again I am not fully aware of how successful or unsuccessful this really is.

Well I am outta here. Let me know what you all think!

As Always,

Eat Up

Tighter and Tighter

So ... I guess I am kinda asking for some help. Today I put on my size 36 jeans (most of them are 36) and I noticed that they are getting a little too tight. I really need to buy new jeans but I am broke right now. If any of you are feeling a little generous and want to help out a growing boy ... feel free to drop some money into my paypal account so I can get some bigger clothes and keep on growing.

I know that I want to put on at least another 20 lbs. According to my poll it seems as if people have bigger aspirations for me. However I am not sure if I am ready to hit 350. But you never know :)

In other news ... not much is going on. I will hopefully have a friend come visiting me in June. I am sure that you will be seeing some pictures of us if everything works out. I am hoping to go to Expansion also. I will have to try hard to budget that in for October. I am fully enrolled into a community college for the fall and I have been talking with people at Eastern Michigan about transferring credits to get my bachelors. I am just waiting on transcripts for BG and my high school. I started counting down the days until I am able to quit my job, not that I am going to quit but at least I know that I will be able to. I only have 120 days left!!! I think that is all for now. Thank you all for your support. I would not being gaining if there weren't people out there like you guys.

Eat up!!

New Pants!!!

Not much has happened recently. Met up with someone, went out to eat and had some fun with lots of ice cream. Today, I bought my first pair of size 38 pants. I am not sure how long that I will actually be in these though. I have been growing pretty well recently. I need to buy a lot of new clothes though. Most of my shirts are tight now and I only have 3 pairs of jeans that fit me.

Work hasn't been too bad lately. I still can not wait to get out though. I don't like going to work anymore so it is time to move on. Yesterday I started setting up my classes for the fall. I was hoping to only have to go 2 times a week with the way that it works out I will have to go 5 days a week. That just means that I am going to have to eat lots this summer so when fall hits I don't lose too much weight.

Just a reminder you can always donate some money to help me grow. You might not be able to be here with me but you can help support if you would like.

Eat Up!!

Still Around

Just wanted to stop in and say "Hi". I'm still alive ... barely. I took some time off from gaining. I have lost some weight ... I'm around 215 right now. So it wasn't too much. With symphony season over I should be able to get back on track and head up to 250. Just going to have to buy new clothes ... as you can see. But, for now I am headed off for a snack ...



As Always,
Eat up

Disdain for the Wealthy

So in light of the recent Democratic Primaries, I feel that I need to get up on my soap box. So as many of you may already know I work at McDonald's, one of the worlds largest employers. Did you know that 1 in 5 Americans had their first job at McDonald's? That's just dandy. Well, I am a salaried manager there and here is the deal. I work in a franchise, where we have a separate owner from the parent company McOpCo. I always thought our owner was great, he treated me well, it was decent pay. But, in light of recent information, I no longer feel that way. It turns out that he has put a cap on the salaried managers pay ... without telling any of us. And when you reach that cap ... you will no longer receive an increase of pay at all, not even cost of living. This man takes home nearly $30,000 a month .... A MONTH!!! And he is putting a cap on my pay?? Bull shit!!

This is the reason that I would never make it in business, I find it really hard to pull down my pants and shit on someone's face. I just can't do it, I can't. What angers me more is the Democratic Primary. I did not get to vote for a candidate because I had moved and didn't get to re-register in time. However I am not sure that I would have even voted ... if given the chance. I don't feel either candidate is qualified. Would I have chosen Clinton with her great wealth and creepy ass hair, or Obama with his poorly backed rhetoric and his creepy ass ears? I don't think that I can take it.

Something needs to change though. Something. I can't take it anymore, the stupidity of some of the things within our country. We don't have a president that cares about people at all, he could give two shits about the lower or middle class. I bust my ass for 60 hours a week, and my crew busts their ass for 40. But when it comes to pay increase and wage reviews and I have to tell them ... you have been here a year ... and your pay increase is 15 cents. I feel like shit. But it isn't my choice in how much I can give. It is the asshole that lives in his 5 bedroom suburban home driving his Lexus to business meetings. He isn't the one that has to break the news to the single mother of disabled daughter because her husband pushed her down the stairs while she was pregnant. No ... he gets to go home at 5 pm while I am there till midnight cleaning his great retirement "investment". I am tired of the hypocrites.

And for those so called "republicans" that may bash me because I am saying this crap. You can eat me. There is something fundamentally wrong with our government and it is the middle class and below that needs to fix it. Our president, how can I put this lightly, is a moron. As Lewis Black would say. "When the words coming out of your mouth don't match the expression on your face. That's fucked up." He of course is referring to Bush and whenever he talks about the war in Iraq. How can you smile while you are talking about war??? Seriously. It is a wonder why he hasn't been shot in the face. Where is Dick Cheney when you need him?

Tip of the Week: Go fuck someone before you get fucked yourself.

As Always,
Eat up

Karmically Bitchslapped

For all of you that have been worried about my dog, he is fine. Umm, he ate a pack of sanitary pads. Luckily, they were not used (for all of you who were wondering). So ... my tax return, that I was going to use to get a laptop, went to my dog's vet bills. They just took x-rays and gave him some shots, no surgery and now I am broke. Argh!

Work has been getting on my nerves too. I cannot wait to quit working there. I am tired of working for someone that I feel is not competent enough to do their job. Instead, they push their tasks onto me and I get overloaded and things do not get completed. Then when my superiors are in trouble ... they easily push the blame upon those below them. Apparently if you have been in the business longer than I have been alive it gives you that right.

As many of you may already know, I am about 2 lbs away from my goal of 225 lbs. I would like to thank everyone for their donations to help me keep growing. One person I would like to thank especially, trelbloat. Your donations have helped tremendously as you can tell. I have been eating like crazy and I love it. All of my shirts are tight, and I no longer fit into my work pants. I think a lot of it has to do with this music that was sent to me. This music is supposed to have a subliminal message hidden underneath a type of inspirational music. I was very skeptical at first, however it seems to be working very well. If you are interested in getting this music feel free to message me on yahoo.

I have been thinking about this next bit for quite some time. Everyone that approaches me online and asks "Why did you start gaining". My response is always this. "I have always been attracted to a slim guy that puts on weight. I find it incredibly erotic. For a very long time I wanted to wait and gain with someone, find someone similar to me and start from scratch. This opportunity never appeared. So I got fed up and started gaining on my own." I did receive a lot of help from an encourager that will always hold a special place in my heart and he knows who he is.

Then I get approached by these skinny guys that say that they have tried to gain weight and it "didn't work out". To that I say ... there is no way that you tried hard enough to gain weight. If it is something that you truly desire you will get it. Gaining weight is not easy, just like losing weight. There have been a few times where I have ate so much it made me kind of sick to my stomach, but it was all towards a goal. Similar to how athletes will run until they get sick. Don't tell me that you can't gain weight ... you can, you just have to try, you have to research and then apply what you have found out.

For those that approach me and say that they are afraid to gain because of what people would think about them. Here is the scoop. Most people are too busy looking at themselves in the mirror that they will not even notice that you have put on weight. They ARE NOT going to think that you are putting on weight intentionally. You see people gain weight all the time in your day to day life. Do you think to yourself every time that you see someone that is fat, "oh they did that on purpose"? If you do ... I'm sorry I have to say this ... you are stupid. Look at me ... I have put on almost 50 lbs total, most people that I encounter have not even noticed at all. I have received comments from two people. One being my grandmother who said "you don't look anorexic anymore" and the other ... one of my coworkers who said that I am getting love handles.

Don't live your life worrying about what others will think about you. As gay males most of us have come a tremendous way already, why should this be any different?

Tip of the Day: After eating as much as possible it is best to take a nap. While you are sleeping your metabolism falls nearly to a halt. So the more calories you pack in before bed, the more calories will be converted to fat.

As Always,
Eat up

Reserved ... yet thoughtless

I am glad to see that I have received a positive response to my first post. So here is what has been going on. My dog is in the hospital. He ate something and we aren't sure what it is but he has to stay there. They did x-rays and found some kind of blockage so that he isn't able to go to the bathroom. I should know sometime soon if he needs to have surgery or not, which is going to be expensive. Other than that not much has been going on.

Work has been terrible. I can not wait to get out and into college. My dream would be to go to Cleveland Institute for Music and to play in a pit orchestra on Broadway ... but the chances of that are really low, but hey I can still dream.

I have started a growth fund, with everything that has been going on it has been harder and harder to gain weight in a healthy manner. Sure I can eat at work and I can get cheap fast food but I am worried that I am going to have very negative side effects from the amount of "bad" stuff that I am ingesting. I don't really think that the growth fund will work but you never know.

A few days ago I watched a youtube video created by ForceMeBig, who is another gainer on beefyfrat. I was so incredibly turned on by it, that I went out and bought heavy whipping cream, half and half, and a half gallon chocolate peanut butter ice cream. I ran home and mixed all of my ingredients ... including a little veg. oil, for some extra calories. I then proceeded to chug it down in one sitting feeling my belly fill up with fattening goodness. Afterwards I took a nap to let it all be absorbed to be stored in my belly. Sorry to make this so short but I have to go meet a Gracie for a late lunch.

Tip of the Week: Try your best to skip breakfast. Skipping breakfast will slow your metabolism for the rest of the day. My old health teacher, who was also a nutritionalist, always said that it is better to eat a tablespoon of sugar than to eat nothing at all because it sets the pace for the rest of the day. A slow metabolism means more of the calories that you ingest are stored as fat cells.

As Always,
Eat up!!

Preface

Let me start out saying that I am young, well not too young, I'm 21. I am by no means an expert in the area of gaining or the chub and chaser group. I do know someone that I would classify as an expert, and he knows who he is. I am writing this to let young people know that it is natural. Being attracted to overweight people is something that just is and it should not be ignored.

The feel of a full belly, an expanding waistline or a supple roll of fat are all major turn ons for me. I have tried to ignore these attractions and forced myself to have what are deemed as "normal" relationships, however these have always ended terribly.

I am going to try my best to tell my story, to talk openly about myself and my attractions. After going through a denial period I feel that it is necessary for me to let people know that they should not be ashamed. Hopefully I can prevent others the heartache and pain that I had gone through while trying to be "normal".

Enough of my preaching.

About me: I am 21 and I live in Ohio. I grew up in an upper middle class town in NW Ohio and had a normal family. My always knew that I was different from my family and I still think that I am a milkman baby. I look nothing like my family and I have features only from my mothers side of the family, however my mom was not the cheating type. My father on the other hand was.

My parents finally decided to get divorced around the time that I was 14. At the age of 15 I had to get a job. My so-called father did not feel that it should be his job to continue to support the family since he was no longer living under the roof of the house that "he built". So I started working at McDonald's .... yay!! gainers love that. I got the job so that I could pay for my own clothes, so my mother had one less thing to worry about as she had constant panic attacks at the local grocery store, fearing that she would no longer be able to afford to feed her family while my father was on vacation in Florida. Hey, who doesn't have family issues.

Either way, I turned to music to forget about my family problems. Music quickly became my passion, my reason for living. I began studying privately while I was in 6th grade but I never noticed how much of an attachment I had to music until all of my family drama began to take shape. Along with music my other passion proved to be work, I threw myself whole heartedly into whatever I was doing. At the age of 18 I was playing semi-professionally with a local symphony and I was a full time hourly manager at McDonald's along with going to high school and part time at local State University. I weighed 175 lbs and harbored my true desires, to get fat and to be with guy that was getting fat too.

Me at 175 lbs Summer 2007 (left)
Me at 211 lbs Winter 2008 (right)

So here it goes. I will try my best to give tips to those who would like to gain some weight. Hopefully I will keep this running for awhile so I can post progress pictures and make a bit of an impact in the lives of those who are ashamed of what it is that they desire.