First I would like to apologize for not updating regularly. I have recently moved back out on my own into a tiny studio apartment right off of campus. I transferred stores and am working at a new local (completely disorganized) store. I did bring my kitty, who has not fully adjusted yet. She keeps waking me up in the middle of the night wanting to play so I haven't really been getting a whole lot of sleep especially with working nearly full time and taking classes full time.
As for any gaining ... it has been extremely uneventful. I thought that moving to a larger city and being closer to Detroit would allow me to find someone that would be interested in pursuing some sort of relationship, but I have been sadly mistaken.
With all of the walking on campus and not getting regular sleep I have already lost 3 lbs in the matter of a week and a half. This is why I feel that I need someone who would like to have a gainer/feeder or mutual gaining relationship.
I know that we all have these bouts of depression, of which I am going through now. Every once in awhile I feel the need to just take all of my information/videos/pics down and just lose all of the weight that I have gained. And plenty of people try and console me and say that "If I were around your area I would date you". Which basically doesn't make anyone feel better. While others say that they will come and visit, making false promises after fantasizing about what they want to do to me or have me do to them. This is just like rubbing salt in a fresh cut, like I have said before ... I am more than just your fantasy, your secret perversion that you are too afraid to vocalize in person, the image in the back of your head as your toes cringe while you are getting off. I am a person with emotions. I am not perfect, I know that. There is no need to point out my many faults; my inability to fully control my emotions. I will not be silenced, I will not be ignored. I will find someone eventually.
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